Pain Days

Some times I can't do the things I need or want to do. I call these my pain days. You see, every disc in my spine has some kind of damage, some more, some less, most causing pain! I don't like to take too many pain pills so most of the time I suffer through it. Working 6 hours a day will often wipe me out so that when I get home all I can do is lie on my bed. Dinner? Something out of the freezer! It's a trade off I guess... I work for extra money which I spend on frozen food because I can't cook because I work!

Then there is the problem of attending school and sporting events my children are involved in. After work I don't feel like sitting any longer. Yet, what can you miss? Football games? Concerts? Award ceremonies? Even when the kids say its okay for me to miss their event, I will still feel terrible for skipping. So I attend most of them, though the pain makes it so that I can't enjoy the event. It's what mothers do right? Sacrifice for the little darlings who forget to feed the cat and won't keep their room clean! lol

The worst though is the feeling of neglecting my church calling. Until recently I was a counselor in the Young Women's program. Most of the time I didn't feel up to going to the activities on week nights. My dilemma? Do I go in so much pain that I can't concentrate on what's happening and can't physically help, or do I take a pain pill which makes me so loopy that I can't concentrate on what's happening and shouldn't physically help!?! Half the time I would just stay home, grateful for an understanding president.